Perhaps all my followers are gone as they think that I do not update my blog anymore. But blogging still serves as a mini dairy for me to write down all my feelings and thoughts.

Today is my rest day and this is the first time i sleep until 1pm as I do not need to wake up early to go to work? Life is so great during off day where there is not disturbance from colleagues.

My final exam is approaching next week. Just hope I can try my best to strive for it!

It has been quite some time since I last update my blog. Perhaps was about few months back? Someone reminded me about my blog and so here I am....

Life have been ups and downs. Perhaps I was struggling these few months and I don't even have the time to upload my blog.

I am like entering into another generation. No longer active in facebook, no longer active in blogging and no longer active in my favorite maple story where I used to be. What I did every day was work, home, assignment, sleep and the routine goes on and on.

Friends and family are complaining, RESIGN AND GET A BETTER JOB. That was the usual thing I heard from them. It has already been a norm to receive such complaints from them.

I shall not comment much on the above as I have my own thoughts. I do hope they can understand me. Don't ask me why aren't you leaving your job now? Please......

Actually a lot of things are troubling it where it includes some which couldn't be written into words.

A wonderful day out with my lovely sista who came all the way from KL. As usual, Ipoh doesn't have a lot of fancy places to visit. We went to all the caves nearby and brought them to some local food stalls. Visiting ipoh is just like a 'eating trip'. Eat and eat and eat from morning till night.

My final test is around the corner. About 2 weeks to go. This is the first time I am having final test for my masters program. With such a short time period to study and revise, I wonder how am I going to score all the papers.

I am in a dilemma now, whether to continue or to let go after considering all the circumstances. I need someone to talk to but I don't know who will be the correct people. I am so scare that I have talk to someone that I shouldn't.

Yeah, you all are right. Our lives do have ups and downs. When there is any change in the environment, I may not able to adapt for the first few days but I found out that as time goes by, I began to adapt to it. At first I thought I couldn't accept it at all, but it turns out to be just fine.

Whatever it is, the decision will still goes back to us. I hope that I am choosing the correct path. Gambateh!

You would never know what he wants. You can never expect anything from him. This is because you will only receive scoldings and complaints from him. No matter how right you are he will still find some mistakes for you. When you try to do something extra, he is expecting even more from you.

When you are about to let go, he came in and persuade you not to let go and must stay strong. You will never have chance to request for anything. You just have to be a good follower and listener.

When you give any suggestion, he will say that your suggestion is useless. When he propose a suggestion, eventhough it is not effective you must support him.

When he makes any mistakes, you are the one who have to explain for him. When you make mistakes, please do your own explanation.

When there are cases which he cannot settle himself, he will ask for your assistance. On the other hand when you have any problems, you have to find your own solution.

What a intense environment........

Shall stop neglecting my blog. Here I am back to posting :)

Life have been quite miserable in this 2 months. My work life beginning more and more stressful as I have to handle my work and assignments at the same time. Further more, there is sudden change in the structure of work in my company.

But in this 8 months after joining the company, I can feel that I am really growing up. I wonder whether others do have this kind of challenges in their life but I really feel it and got through it. At first the feeling sucks but my manager was right. We need to have positive attitude and always ready to adapt to new environment. By resigning is just the way to avoid problems and you will never grow. Worst still one day you will be stagnant. That's what my manager shared with me when I was depressed.

I am really glad that I have colleagues who support me and are willing to listen to me.

By the way, Happy Mother's Day!!!!! Shall end my blog here.

It is really hard to study and work at the same time. Morning you have to to work and at night you have to do your assignment especially when your assignment datelines are around the corner.

I have a very very fruitful weekends for the month of March. First weekend I spent it at the saloon, second weekend I went to KL for my cousin sister's convocation, third weekend I am going to SG and the forth weekend I am having my monthly tutorial class. What a busy month I have.

Once in a blue moon I wil still feel moody. I am still struggling to make a decision. But I know that I have to make it one day and I hope that I am choosing the correct path.

My manager asked me this question, "What kind of job would you prefer? Front-line or back-end? Do you like to serve customers or to be in hotel or f&b industry?"

My answer rather tough and firm and I answered him. "I prefer back-end or administrative job where I don't have to deal with customers. Hotel or F&B doesn't suit me coz I am not in favor of servicing line."

Through the conversation I can roughly know what kind of job I would prefer to and I began to think that I have chose the right subject for my degree. Glad to hear that :)

Okay okay. Shall stop crapping and back to my stupid dupid assignment =(

Seems like no peeps missing me as no one read my blog recently. Sad case but my blog shall remain as the place for me to express my feelings especially when I am very very frustrated.

Here I am today, not in the right mood, and my tears are like waterfall wanna roll down from my eyes. Perhaps is the time for me to let go everything and enjoy myself to the max. Planning for trips to KL and SG, planning to have fun somewhere and planning to enjoy every week of my off day.

I really feel frustrated when no one can help me. I do not need people to console me, to cheer me up or to comfort and calm me, what I need is a very own space for myself to relax and calm down myself. Stop disturbing me and I will be fine.

Shall end my blog here. I love those who cares for me and cheers me up when I am down. Thanks alot :P muackssss~

Was kinda moody this few days and I wonder why. Maybe I am too busy with my salary report as well as my March timetable to be submitted with a lot of amendments from my superiors here and there.

I am so forgetful that I placed my keys and pendrive inside my office and I locked the office without the keys and end up searching high and low for it. I am so forgetful that I leave my punch card at my office and leaving my office without punching in and out.

It is really hard to settle your things because whenever you wanna finish it, there are some obstacles that stop you from doing it. I always want to settle things fast so that I don't have to worry in the future. I do not like to drag my work and I will try my best to finish it as soon as possible. But there are alot of circumstances here and there that will stop you from accomplishing your task.

Having to stuck in the middle is another obstacles of life. A may ask you to follow instruction A and B will ask you to follow instruction B. Which one should you choose? You cannot make either one angry because they are the one who decide everything for you. They are the one who support your life. Do we really have to place a bet in either A or B and let the God to decide whether you are right or wrong? Finally I understand the meaning ' life is like gambling', in other words struggling to make a decision that you yourself don't know whether is correct or wrong.

Well, enough of theories. Shall end my blog here. Goodnight to all my dear readers =)

Again is the time to blog and express my feelings. Time passes so fast. And so fast I am back to work. Suddenly I miss my sg. long life so much. One year ago we were struggling for midterm test this time and we can see fireworks nearly every night at sg. long. Normally I won't bother bout the fireworks and I will have my own sweet sleeping time and yet my cousin sister and my housemate will be watching the fireworks through the window. Now that everyone of us already graduate and leave Sg. Long. =(

I am struggling for my assignments now =( So so so lazy to start doing and yet dateline is next month. One more month to submit 3 assignments together at the same date. How am I going to finish it if I continue to slack this way -.-

Seriously not in a good mood now. I thought I can let go everything and just stay calm and steady. But till today I realize I can't make it. I appear to be quite nervous in handling cases, and I will still think about it even though it already passed. Why can't I just forget everything and let it go and let it disappear as time goes by? Why do I want to mention it again and again and put myself into dilemma?

But I know I can. I can make it a beautiful and wonderful life to live on =) I won't put myself into a difficult situation. I have to know to protect myself and not to get hurt anymore!!!

Suddenly in a mood to blog and so here I am =)

Happy CNY to everyone of you. Hope you do enjoy your CNY although it seems that alot of you are complaining that it is actually quite boring but this is the only time in the year where all family members can gather together and enjoy the celebration. So we shall appreciate it.

As we are growing, CNY seems not to be so fun after all. No more fireworks, firecrackers. Left only all kinds of junk food and drinks on the table and also playing cards.

As for me, this is the best time for me to take a break and rest before heading back to work 2 days later. But once you entered into this industry, it is really hard for you to even take a short break. You will still receive phone calls from your company asking you to solve up cases on behalf of them even though you are off. They will still call you up asking for opinion.

Why do people always wanted to get into a relationship? Is it so bad or so pity to be single? Or they need someone to dote them or someone to talk to?

My post today is so random. I just type out whatever is in my mind right now. Shall end my blog here =)

Wonder do I really look fierce coz quite a number of my company staffs saying that I am fierce. Is it really the truth?

Few more days to Chinese New Year. This is the first year that I have to work on 1st day of Chinese New Year. Well, shall enjoy my work though. I am like facing boxes and boxes of mandarin oranges from morning to night. Now I am so phobia to see boxes of mandarin oranges in front of me. Maybe tonight I will start dreaming that I am selling mandarin oranges.

It is really good to work in supermarket during festive season. You can see different kind of situations, different kind of customers etc and etc but with all the extend business hours where we have to work till 11 plus is kinda exhausted.

Shall end my blog here. Looking forward to the upcoming chinese new year!!

I HATE EVERYONE!

I just don't know why I feel so frustrated now. So so so angry with everyone! So many days of full working day and finally I have one fine day to reach home early. I just wanna do the things I want. Why am I prohibited to do so?

You want is your matter. Is none of my business. Why you wanna ruined my day? Why can't you just tolerate with me? I am like now attached to you. Do I have to follow you? I have my own rights okay? That's my business. What the heck you care about??

Seriously not in a good mood. I shall just scold and scold and scold here. Missed a reunion lunch with my colleagues today and ended up having my pity little lunch at office with a few colleagues accompanying me. I know all of them do doted me alot =) They packed up everything for me, trying to console me when I get scoldings from others, trying to ask me to let go. A Big Thanks to all of them =)

They are much more better compare to those who is only good to you when they need you. When they do not need you they don't even mind to look and talk to you. And also those who only know how to find troubles from you. Whenever they have troubles, they will ask you to solve it up but in fact do we really have to help you out? Why can't you just try to solve it up yourself? People really good at avoiding their own responsibility.

Conclusion for today, I hate everyone! I hate those ruined my day, hate those who scolded me for nothing, hate those no heart people who doesn't even mind to find me. HATE EVERYONE!

Nothing really special when it comes to working life. No photos to be uploaded and a lot of things are not supposed to be disclosed. So here I am, doing fine as time goes by, trying my best to forget all the unnecessary things =)

Drinking alcoholic drinks is really that fun? Or it is really enjoyable to get drunk? Why must everyone drink when they feel depressed? Is there any other ways to reduce your sadness and stress?

For me I rather hide myself in my room and cry. Cry out Loud! I think it is really a better way for me rather than getting drunk as I don't really like alcoholic drinks.

My viruses in my mind are getting lesser and lesser. I am sure by one day all of them will gone and I shall say bye bye to YOU!

Short and sweet. Shall end my blog here

Back from KL - as usual a short trip to KL to meet all my beloved and to go for a short shopping there. I don't really have the time to walk around as I was quite exhausted after a day of working and rush straight down to KL. Ending up it was quite a rush trip. Should really take one day leave next time if I am planning to KL again.

I was just about to clear up all the so called 'viruses' in my mind but all of them seem to be arousing me once again. Why do you all want to interrupt me when I am already 'deleted' all of it? How can I actually get rid of all those 'viruses'? You know it really needs a long long time to clear up all the 'viruses'? Perhaps I shall use a stronger and better anti virus software to delete all the viruses in my mind.

My part time course gonna start on next weekend. Kinda excited since it has been some time that I never touch notes and slides. Hope that in this new year everything will be fine for me. Praying hard to strive for the best =)

OMG. I can't sleep without my daily routine and now I am still awake mapling =x

When I am about to forget and let go everything, things occurred again. Why you want to appear in such a wrong timing?

But I know I can make it =) Gambateh!!

Things are turning out to be good now although it may not be a good start of 2010 for me.
I begin to let go,
I begin to stay calm when handling cases,
I begin to find the best solution for problems,
I begin to forget something that I tried very hard not to think about it,
And most of all,
I begin to treasure everyone who loves and cares about me =)

Wondering when I can have the mood to blog more often and not once in a blue moon. Alot of unexpected things happening around me recently, something that is unpredictable and unbelievable that I myself couldn't accept the fact that it is happening.

Entering into the new year of 2010 means a lot to me. Again it was our family yearly routine to celebrate our countdown celebration at KL and we spent another day in genting. It was my first time entering Genting Casino.

Had a small gathering with my ex-unimates but it is kinda sad that many of them couldn't make it on that day. I wish that someone will arrange a gathering next time for all of us to meet up once again as it is really hard to gather all up because most of us are working at different places.

I miss the feeling of texting. I remembered during my high school time where I used to text from morning to night with my friends. Maybe I already grown up or what I have no one to text with me now =(

Have been suffering from flu and cough since yesterday and I hope I can cure soon.

Shall end my blog here.