Seems like I am neglecting my pity little bloggie. Here I am to accompany him since I have not been updating recently.

My work was so so and I begin to feel that it is not easy to enter retailing industry. You may have to sacrifice all your public holiday and stay in your workplace. Perhaps this will be a good stepping stone for me as well.

Life is just complicated sometimes. There are some unpredictable things happening but you couldn't even know how to solve it. Some choose to pretend don't know and some choose to stay away from the unsolved problems. Some even make a tough decision to let go. Which will be the correct path to be taken? Letting go? But if letting go could you make it?

Someone told me to just pretend don't know and the problem will solve by itself but I don' think is a good solution as I am the one who like to thinks alot. When I know I have the responsibility, by hook or by crook I wanna figure out a solution for it. My solution may not be a good one or may make things even worse but at least I tried to solve.

Shall call it off today.

Having complicated feelings now. Everything seems not to be in the ordinary order. Maybe this is really not a good year for me. Things are just not going smoothly.

I feel like letting go whatever I am having now.
I feel like starting a brand new life of myself.
I feel like living in my own world.
I just don't like the way I am now. Having to worry and take all the burden of nowhere.
I just want a simple life with simple mind and simple people around me.
I want to care only the people who care me.
I don't want to be rich but I need someone to support me both physically and mentally.
I don't want to contribute more than others.

Maybe I shall really let it go....... I know I can handle it all by myself.

Feel like blogging whenever I am extremely happy or sad or angry. Have my off day today. Again I went out with my mum. Another month passed by and I received my second month salary. Stepping into the third month I know that challenges are awaiting me. I am 75% adapted to my working environment and another 25% will be some uncertainties.

Sometimes the more you appreciate the more hard you gonna let go. The more you care you are the more suffer you are when you lose it. You may want to have 100% of it and yet you can only get maybe 50% of it. I know I am crapping. Even myself don't know what I am writing.

Shall end my blog here. I am in a kind of feelings that I couldn't explain. Maybe I shall work and work an work to forget all these things.

Wondering how long could I stand working in such a stressful environment. Once wrong doesn't mean I am always wrong right? People do have mistakes right?

Blogging is really a good place for you to express your feelings. After blogging it out, it will really make you feel better. I couldn't write a fantastic blog like others do. I may have grammatical errors here and there. But I will still continue to write and trying to improve myself.

Really face a lot of different troubles at my working place right now. Hope that I can really stand and stay strong =) Will try my very best!

So stress up with my current work. Heavy workload and heavy responsibilities as well. Seriously it is really not easy to survive in this company. You have to be really tough.

Every beginning of the month I will start shivering because I will start to worry that I key-ed in the wrong figure for their overtime and they will come and complain.

And when people know that you are a freshie, they will start to take advantage on you. They will assume you don't know everything. One of them said this to me, ' you are still a small kids you won't know anything. Don't try to act smart in front of me. Ever since you came you are making a lot of troubles' -.-

Ya, i may be new but certain rules and regulations I do know. And I am not making troubles but to solve up all the leftover troubles by the previous person okay? All the while they are guided with the wrong instructions and regulations. I am just the one who follow up all the undone task and yet I am the one who kena scolded?

If one day I really leaving this company I will really make sure I hand over all my things properly to my colleagues. It is really hard to settle with all the undone task where you actually do not have clues where you should start with.

Maybe I shall not complain. Everyone will face difficulties in their work too. Anyway after blogging and expressing I do feel better. Thanks to all who supports me as I grow. I will stay strong and try my best to cope up with whatever problems that I am facing right now.

Yay, another weekend and tomorrow is my only rest day of the week. Sounds pity right? No choice. That's the path that I have chosen.

Another end month and I have just finished my salary report and just in time to courier to my HQ. Hope everything will be smooth and fine. No amendment and no explanation needed. Gonna start submitting reports when I going back to work on Monday. Pending jobs are awaiting me.

Went out for a movie right after my work today. Quite some time that I last went for a movie at cinema as most of the time I was working. I do like to have some outings during my rest day no matter with my friends or family. After a tiring week of working it is kinda enjoyable when you do have some outings for you to relax yourself and to keep yourself away from the hectic workload.

Perhaps I shall only update my blog every weekend as I hardly online during weekdays. Most of the time my routine task after work is to take my shower, watch tv and go to bed. I don't even switch on my computer. That's the reason why sometimes I may be outdated with events happening in facebook or elsewhere.

Awaiting for the upcoming events and gathering. Cheers my friends. !!